I'm in my fifth year of the PhD program, with no end in sight... *sigh*
Oh! And while I was driving home I thought of an extension of my Grand Unified Theory of Dean. I suspect, on some level, there's a part of Dean that's actually afraid to find their father. It all goes back to that darling boy's serious abandonment issues -- so long as Dad is off somewhere doing something, sending them coordinates from time to time, Dean can pretend that Dad is doing something Very Important With Good Reasons.
But once they find actually find Dad, he runs the risk that maybe Dad isn't going to have good answers to questions like, "Why did you leave without telling me?" and "Didn't you trust me to help you?" and "Why didn't you come when I asked for help?" (Not that the Winchesters would ever have that conversation. They would just glare at each other and leave the fangirls to fill in the blanks.)
I don't think Sam gets that. (Okay, there's a lot about Dean that Sam doesn't get.) All he sees is Dean following orders, never once thinking that maybe Dean's following orders because it's better than the alternative: admitting the possibility that maybe Dad has no use for him anymore.
Whew. I'm rambly today! Sorry, but this is what happens when you're on my flist and you ask for speculation. *sheepish grin*
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Re: GUT!
Date: 2006-01-07 04:20 pm (UTC)Oh! And while I was driving home I thought of an extension of my Grand Unified Theory of Dean. I suspect, on some level, there's a part of Dean that's actually afraid to find their father. It all goes back to that darling boy's serious abandonment issues -- so long as Dad is off somewhere doing something, sending them coordinates from time to time, Dean can pretend that Dad is doing something Very Important With Good Reasons.
But once they find actually find Dad, he runs the risk that maybe Dad isn't going to have good answers to questions like, "Why did you leave without telling me?" and "Didn't you trust me to help you?" and "Why didn't you come when I asked for help?" (Not that the Winchesters would ever have that conversation. They would just glare at each other and leave the fangirls to fill in the blanks.)
I don't think Sam gets that. (Okay, there's a lot about Dean that Sam doesn't get.) All he sees is Dean following orders, never once thinking that maybe Dean's following orders because it's better than the alternative: admitting the possibility that maybe Dad has no use for him anymore.
Whew. I'm rambly today! Sorry, but this is what happens when you're on my flist and you ask for speculation. *sheepish grin*