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this fruit fly refuses to die!!!!!!!!

God, it's been driving me nuts just outside my peripheral vision for like two days.

Die die die die

I would like to point out that I had every intention of being responsible this week.

Alas, intentions and I never get along.

B gave me a book on sunday (who doesn't see where this is going?). So yeah, I stayed up till 2:30 am reading even though said book wasn't that good. I always forget exactly why I love reading fiction even when I don't love what I'm reading -- unless it's horribly written, the words fill my mind and block everything else out so completely. It's like the idiot's shortcut to meditation. Now, if a book is good, this can actually get counterproductive because the emotions the author takes me through actually make me feel wrung out instead of zen at the end. Anyway, thoughts etc w/ possible spoilers

( The traveler by John Twelve Hawks )

So yeah, I don't recommend. But it did cause me to sleep like a frigging rock last night. And probably dulled my ability to get angry yesterday when I found out that my experiment from this weekend was fragged for no identifiable reason. *screams* Same problem as last time. So now I sit around while I wait to see if V has the same issue or not since she remade all her buffers and crap. How come no one had any suggestions for sacrifices that i need to do to appease the science gods? Oh crap, just realized, the mouse god might be getting revenge since I've been helping B. Who knew, he was right, small animal karma does hurt you.

Everyone in the lab also drove me absolutely nuts yesterday. Being there on weekends with no high pitched voices around (other than my own I suppose, but it doesn't sound high to me fortunately or I'd have cut my tongue out long ago) cut down on my tolerance totally. Then the secretary was in the reading room that I'd retreated to when the techs had gotten to annoying for me to focus on my data. There's something about that woman that just, even out of the side of my eye, drives me insane and makes me want to....hit her. I now know exactly how annoying it was for everyone else when I couldn't sit still as kid/teen. ( ranty mcrant )

Despite all that, I was actually in a good mood. I suspect my hormones have recovered from my two in one month fiasco. But I didn't get to work till 2pm yesterday because of my reading late at night and then I had to go and take all my pda stuff (including cradle) to b's lab so I could get the pics off his camera phone onto his computer (neither of us have internet added to our phone plans so I had to get something w/ blue tooth to get them off and both our computers are a little older than that). Of course, once I had blue tooth on my pda enabled, I discovered that the other student in the lab had a blue tooth computer. *bangs head* B's all like, "but he doesn't know how to use it". Dude, I never did the whole phone to pda thing either, but I figured it out finally. It's not that freaking hard. I honestly don't know why I'm the "tech" one in this relationship other than i'm slightly less worried about breaking things. Ask e_tsarran, I should in no way be allowed to trouble shoot anything.

But I slept like the dead last night. I did not do laundry once again (i do have clothes, but i need to finish up my colored loads if I'm going to have shirts to wear tomorrow). I did not clean like I fully intended to last night on getting home. I did not work out because when I was half way to the gym, I had flash of TWIN REGRETS in my head. Omg! You have no clue how long I debated of whether to go work out or to go home and write it. I chose to go home and write it...and sadly, ti wouldn't cooperate. I suspect it was because I tried to set up the scene first and my editor rebelled at the hideousness of it before it let me get to the talking heads. *cries* Still, maybe the idea will germinate better.

So Imeant to wake up and do laundry this morning. Didn't wake up till 8:30 courtesy of falling asleep on ouchy ouchy futon (I'm going to have to go ahead and get the air mattress because there is simply very very little padding between my bones and the wood left in what was four years ago a 13 inch cotton futon pad) and then transferring to blissful bed around 4:30. Took the four hours for all the kinks to work out. So yeah, looking like a noonish day. I'm bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad.

Okay, done beating myself up now. :P LOL. Yes, I know. Weird weird mood. I have decided that despite the humidity, my nosebleeds are a result of the ragweed (that is actually giving me no other problems. Yay allegra and lack of other allergens) plus running the a/c in 65 degree temps to cut the humidity (though my apartment doesn't go beyond 70ish).

yes, yes, shutting up now. :P:P:P:P:P

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Well, I got my dansko boots today. They are these. Now I need to figure out whether to keep or not. I did get them on a much better sale ($85). I don't mind the color at all - very brown and plain looking. Fine with me. The only problem is that string on the front. The bottom rung of it is much bulkier than the top two and presses against my foot. I don't know if it will cause me pain after a day of wearing them or not. (especially since my right foot is so much muscular on the top thanks to all my physical therapy after ligament damage).

these would probably be the ones I'd return them for. (I don't know why the BROWN ones are the ones on sale today (big sale too)) but it makes me think I should wait until I see these on sale again before I decide. Hmmm.