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[jebbypal]

*bangs head* I've sooo got to remember NOT TO check school email on days off. Ended up not going in yesterday for a variety of reasons...but checked email to see if meeting had been scheduled w/ last committee member only to find email from head of program wanting to meet w/ me. Which is fine except I hate when people talk and arrange things behind your back. I wanted to talk to the committee member before I ventured to talk to anyone else....but the issue has been forced and now I feel 10x as embarrassed, angry at myself, and depressed over the whole thing than I did. In fact put off sleeping last night because I just couldn't face waking up this morning knowing that the meeting was today.

Siiigh. I really have always hated it when people have taken it upon themselves to do what was "best" for me. I hated back when I found out that the faculty of my residential school spied on everyone's relationships, I hated when profs in college felt like I was blowing things off or something when I couldn't get to classes (which turns out I had mono and none of us knew), I hated it when roomates eavesdropped on my conversations and then confronted me when they found out I was venting about me (and I can't help it if you are a religious psycho nut who thinks god talks to you), and I hate not having any amount of control over a single frelling thing in my life.

Okay, sorry had to vent. Now to get the putting off over w/ and get ready to brave the weather to go to work.

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~HUGS~

Good luck at the meeting.