Ugghh, another week
Mar. 7th, 2005 10:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jebbypalSo..had majorly unproductive weekend. Spent as little time as possible thinking aobut work while immersing myself in the ps2. Ratchet and Clank rocks. Other than that, slept a ton. No housework even (which is sad to say).
Only good things of this week: no Youhai today at least. Other than that, still haven't heard back from secretary on scheduling the meeting w/ the member that missed. Brain goes into freeze mode when I contemplate certain things even if I am still feeling pretty good. I think the actual content of the convo w/ youhai on friday finally kicked in and a large part of me keeps asking if I want to keep struggling. Going to another lab still doesn't sound to promising to me although I'm trying to keep an open mind..sorta. I'm trying to convince myself that I can hang in and do the gig for 4-6 mo to see if i make A LOT of progress and go from there. I mean, I have funding for a bit longer anyway. Basically just plain doubting a lot of the conviction I had last week. Going w/ my gut doesn't seem to have worked out to well for me in the past necessarily. So yeah, just basically facing the fact that I've royally screwed myself these past two years in a lot of ways. Siigh. *shakes self* Okay, enough pity. Positive, Remember, Positive.
Only good things of this week: no Youhai today at least. Other than that, still haven't heard back from secretary on scheduling the meeting w/ the member that missed. Brain goes into freeze mode when I contemplate certain things even if I am still feeling pretty good. I think the actual content of the convo w/ youhai on friday finally kicked in and a large part of me keeps asking if I want to keep struggling. Going to another lab still doesn't sound to promising to me although I'm trying to keep an open mind..sorta. I'm trying to convince myself that I can hang in and do the gig for 4-6 mo to see if i make A LOT of progress and go from there. I mean, I have funding for a bit longer anyway. Basically just plain doubting a lot of the conviction I had last week. Going w/ my gut doesn't seem to have worked out to well for me in the past necessarily. So yeah, just basically facing the fact that I've royally screwed myself these past two years in a lot of ways. Siigh. *shakes self* Okay, enough pity. Positive, Remember, Positive.