hopefully not the new normal
May. 28th, 2021 07:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jebbypalSo post-shot 2, after the 48 hours of "WTH is this new pain and fever", I kept having a lot of pain in my right knee -- which is the one I tweaked on both of my 2 falls in the winter. I was starting to worry it was NEW because none of my other injuries were bothering.
Ankle with almost no ligament: fine. Previously torn trapezius that made me contemplate permanent solutions in my 20s and is typically an asshole with vaccines: fine. My bum shoulder that's been dislocated: fine. My long time wonky wrist: fine
My right knee: PAIN if extended and left that way for more than 2 minutes. PAIN if bent while seated and not moved for more 2 minutes. PAIN and dire threats when coming down the stairs.
I mean, not the worst pain ever - probably usually a 2/10 but by the end of the day the accumulating constant ache was more like a 4-5 and I definitely felt it when excedrin was wearing off. Not quite bad enough to try touching NSAIDs again (my gut decided no bueno about 6 years ago and lets me very rarely tolerate one).
So yeah, I was starting to think this was just a VERY UNWELCOME present courtesy of aging body (and very unfair. My knees are one of the few joints I never really hurt growing up), especially after the left started having some sympathy pain.
But yesterday and today have been remarkably much less painful, so I'm starting to have the hope that my nice overactive immune system finally got bored with attacking the most recent spot of inflammation and I have a few more years of functional knees available.
Work has started to pick up, and this week I've managed to reengage my brain and most of my drive, so that's good to be synced up some. And managing has continued to evolve with new challenges, but none dire. So that's good.
One thing with the work is the executive coach they've hired for me. Which has been a nice neutral 3rd party to talk through some of my concerns with my managing style and other things, and when complaining about how badly my procrastination had reared its head, the coach said "Hmm, you know it sounds a lot like a pretty good case of burnout". Which was totally accurate.
Which so part of my assignment now has been to identify and reconnect with things that bring me joy. Which, well, I've made progress on the original task of making time for myself by taking time to workout with the oculus workout app several times a week and prioritizing my sleep (even if procrastinate enough i think i should pull an all nighter).
And I know joy does not encompass my typical "watch lots of TV and binge fanfic to completely avoid thinking that might lead to depression". So yeah, this is my yearly "i need to figure out how to write for fun" again promise. Which I suppose might start with actually rewatching the eps for some of my actual WIP in fandoms I've had luck with the frogmuse in the past.
Ankle with almost no ligament: fine. Previously torn trapezius that made me contemplate permanent solutions in my 20s and is typically an asshole with vaccines: fine. My bum shoulder that's been dislocated: fine. My long time wonky wrist: fine
My right knee: PAIN if extended and left that way for more than 2 minutes. PAIN if bent while seated and not moved for more 2 minutes. PAIN and dire threats when coming down the stairs.
I mean, not the worst pain ever - probably usually a 2/10 but by the end of the day the accumulating constant ache was more like a 4-5 and I definitely felt it when excedrin was wearing off. Not quite bad enough to try touching NSAIDs again (my gut decided no bueno about 6 years ago and lets me very rarely tolerate one).
So yeah, I was starting to think this was just a VERY UNWELCOME present courtesy of aging body (and very unfair. My knees are one of the few joints I never really hurt growing up), especially after the left started having some sympathy pain.
But yesterday and today have been remarkably much less painful, so I'm starting to have the hope that my nice overactive immune system finally got bored with attacking the most recent spot of inflammation and I have a few more years of functional knees available.
Work has started to pick up, and this week I've managed to reengage my brain and most of my drive, so that's good to be synced up some. And managing has continued to evolve with new challenges, but none dire. So that's good.
One thing with the work is the executive coach they've hired for me. Which has been a nice neutral 3rd party to talk through some of my concerns with my managing style and other things, and when complaining about how badly my procrastination had reared its head, the coach said "Hmm, you know it sounds a lot like a pretty good case of burnout". Which was totally accurate.
Which so part of my assignment now has been to identify and reconnect with things that bring me joy. Which, well, I've made progress on the original task of making time for myself by taking time to workout with the oculus workout app several times a week and prioritizing my sleep (even if procrastinate enough i think i should pull an all nighter).
And I know joy does not encompass my typical "watch lots of TV and binge fanfic to completely avoid thinking that might lead to depression". So yeah, this is my yearly "i need to figure out how to write for fun" again promise. Which I suppose might start with actually rewatching the eps for some of my actual WIP in fandoms I've had luck with the frogmuse in the past.