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Apr. 19th, 2005 11:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jebbypalSoo today went pretty well. Except for brian asking what I wanted for my bday. *growls* Sorry, I just really have gotten to that point that I HATE my bday cause my family life always gets FUBARed around it. Though at least my brother and uncle are back in jail so whatever happens won't be due to their fuckups this time. Wonder what else will happen, oh I know, my grandmother will probably decide to go take one of her son's muscle relaxers when she has the flu and a stomach virus and then refuse to drink anything again. *sigh* I swear, someone shoot me before my brain deserts me like that please.
My mom is safe at home again though---for once she didn't have any trouble clotting. *wow, so that's what happens if you have a doctor smart enough to wean her off her blood thinners and prednisone before they operate on her*. No clots so she does have the diminished heart function, but it looks like she'll get to have her back surgery in about a month. Of course now she's getting all wishy washy because they finally managed to give her an epidural that worked for more than 2 days *rolls eyes*. Course I'm still lobbyng for it because I know the damage to her spine isn't exactly going to go away since it's not like she's not going to still be going on and off prednisone. Oh well.
Hmm....and then I think this was the first day in recent years that the anniversary of OKC bombing snuck up on me w/out me realizing it before I saw it in the newspaper. You have to understand that I was about 4 blocks away from the Murrah building because of the residential hs I went to was located in OKC. The windows of the building rattled something awful though our teacher kind of ignored it *rolls eyes some more*
I guess the thing is though, I dunno, I realize what a tragedy that that and other things happening in the world is, but I dunno, I've never been the type that I can get that worked up over it. Granted, I've never had a relative directly injured by it. But it's just one of those things --- like living in the city, I can't be worried I'm gonna be mugged every second or I'd never be able to function. Just felt wierd cause my mom started going on about it when I called her this afternoon. Which yeah, the whole thing was 100x scarier for her because she knew I was in class near it and they couldn't get through on the phones and I guess the phones went down so even when we were bussed to the dorms, the school officials couldn't tell the parents we were all safe. But she was just working herself up so much over it on the phone -- reliving what she felt to me and then talking about she knew a little bit of what the family of the victims must have felt and on and on.
It's one of those things that I don't think it's necessarily age because I've never been the type to get freaked out about things like that. I dunno, maybe all the violence on tv did it's job and I'm just kind of inured to it. Honestly I can only think of one time I was anywhere near falling apart and that was a pretty crappy time and had nothing to do w/ violence.
*shakes head* Sorry to go on about that, just something that's been on my mind this evening. And in no way do I mean to minimize anyone for whom watching the effects of OKC or any of the other things that have happened was traumatic. I think I'm in the minority and I'm not entirely sure there isn't something fucked up w/ how I process things like that. Anyways, just my thoughts.
My mom is safe at home again though---for once she didn't have any trouble clotting. *wow, so that's what happens if you have a doctor smart enough to wean her off her blood thinners and prednisone before they operate on her*. No clots so she does have the diminished heart function, but it looks like she'll get to have her back surgery in about a month. Of course now she's getting all wishy washy because they finally managed to give her an epidural that worked for more than 2 days *rolls eyes*. Course I'm still lobbyng for it because I know the damage to her spine isn't exactly going to go away since it's not like she's not going to still be going on and off prednisone. Oh well.
Hmm....and then I think this was the first day in recent years that the anniversary of OKC bombing snuck up on me w/out me realizing it before I saw it in the newspaper. You have to understand that I was about 4 blocks away from the Murrah building because of the residential hs I went to was located in OKC. The windows of the building rattled something awful though our teacher kind of ignored it *rolls eyes some more*
I guess the thing is though, I dunno, I realize what a tragedy that that and other things happening in the world is, but I dunno, I've never been the type that I can get that worked up over it. Granted, I've never had a relative directly injured by it. But it's just one of those things --- like living in the city, I can't be worried I'm gonna be mugged every second or I'd never be able to function. Just felt wierd cause my mom started going on about it when I called her this afternoon. Which yeah, the whole thing was 100x scarier for her because she knew I was in class near it and they couldn't get through on the phones and I guess the phones went down so even when we were bussed to the dorms, the school officials couldn't tell the parents we were all safe. But she was just working herself up so much over it on the phone -- reliving what she felt to me and then talking about she knew a little bit of what the family of the victims must have felt and on and on.
It's one of those things that I don't think it's necessarily age because I've never been the type to get freaked out about things like that. I dunno, maybe all the violence on tv did it's job and I'm just kind of inured to it. Honestly I can only think of one time I was anywhere near falling apart and that was a pretty crappy time and had nothing to do w/ violence.
*shakes head* Sorry to go on about that, just something that's been on my mind this evening. And in no way do I mean to minimize anyone for whom watching the effects of OKC or any of the other things that have happened was traumatic. I think I'm in the minority and I'm not entirely sure there isn't something fucked up w/ how I process things like that. Anyways, just my thoughts.